She Who Waits

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Can you make heads or tails of this? It's making ZERO sense to me at this point.

I. Hate. Moving.

June 17th email from our housing contact:
I am sending you the application, check list , pro-rated rent policy and the pet policy. Please fill out all of the information and please send it back by e-mail or fax. This way I can make sure that I put you on my list for housing. There is not a wait list at this time. Please don't send the wait list back its yours.
If you have any question or concerns please call or e-mail.

Thanks and I am looking forward to working with you and your family and have a great day.

Cool, we have housing. That works great since we're going to be there for all of five months and looking for a place to rent to us for that amount of time off post would be a pain. Not to mention the added cost, especially considering that we're trying to rent our house here out and taking a monthly loss to do so.

July 30th email from the same contact, after asking if we can do a door-to-door delivery of our household goods:
Hi Sir,
Well currently we are completely full on Officer Housing. We are working at this time to get more available. We have just had so many come in these past weeks. You can come down early however you must be cleared from your last duty station to accept housing here. Hope this helps.

Huh?!

Email from hubby to contact:
How long is the wait for housing currently? What I am trying to figure out is if I need to take leave and clear my current post early so that I can have housing before my school starts. If I do need to check out of here earlier than planned, I need to figure out exactly how soon I need to check in there in order to get a house in time.

Reply from contact:
Hi Sir,
Again we are working on getting everyone in so there really isn't what we consider a wait list. You need housing around September right? Just as long as you have cleared your current duty station you can come early as long as your orders authorize. By September we may have more homes available. That is why I just need to go ahead and have an appt. set up. Have a great day.

What the hell?! What part of "I NEED A HOUSE ON X DATE" do they not get? This is making NO sense to me. She has a copy of the orders. Is there a wait list or isn't there? Will we have a place to live or will we be stuck in a hotel with two dogs (or paying for boarding) and no household goods for an unknown number of days? This maybe crap is not cutting it with me and I'm not comprehending what difference sitting in front of the woman is going to make!

Can one of you experienced milspouses please explain this to me before I make a nine hour drive to stand on someone's desk?

Cleaning out the garage in 90 degree heat and 70% humidity, not so fun.

We move in less than SIX weeks.

Set up property management on the house yesterday. Leave is all approved and such. Movers are booked. Now to the house ... I don't wanna!

To top it all off my new little goddaughter was born this morning and I don't want to leave her this soon!

Such is the life, right?

Can you watch movies about war? Does the time frame of either the film or your loved one's deployment schedule make a difference?

I ordered The War Tapes during his deployment in '06 and could never watch it. It's still in the wrapper, actually. I made the mistake of watching We Were Soldiers during that deployment and just couldn't bring myself to watch a documentary about the current war, where someone I loved was currently fighting.

DH really wanted to watch Generation Kill on HBO. I know I can sometimes react badly to things like this (I couldn't watch Baghdad ER either), but the first episode wasn't too bad at all.

We turned on the second episode in bed last night and I decided that I wasn't going to watch any more of them. The imagery, however hollywood-ized, was just too vivid for me. While I laughed at several points, I found myself picturing him there during that time frame (he was in the invasion) as well as visualizing future deployments. I fought back the tears and snuggled closer to DH, incredibly grateful he was there, but told him that I was done watching the series. It's hard enough trying to battle the worry without the mental videos playing too.

I sized a few more from the shoot of a friend and her pup and had to share. I'm loving getting to know the new camera.

I've been neglecting both my blog and commenting on all of you, but I still read through my RSS. That thing has the ability to condense all of my surfing to one area, but I find I'm a lot less likely to comment when I use it. I just want you all to know that I'm still here, I still read! I'm sure I'll miss a few who are just as important, but I wanted to send some shout outs to my frequent bloggy stops.

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I still do this. He isn't deployed any more, but almost certainly will be deployed yet again within the next year or so. I thought I was just having trouble letting go of the deployment mindset, the defense mechanisms I'd put into place. In truth, I was sort of beating myself up over not being able to stop the random morbid moments. I definitely didn't share it with anyone either, lest they try to send me to a shrink!

AFW said it well, though:

It sounds tremendously morbid to a lot of people, like I live in some kind of depressive fog. The funny thing is, I don't feel depressed about it. I feel lucky. Not lucky that we have deployments hanging over us and time apart. But lucky that I've been able to realize what we have NOW, while AFG is still with me. I have been able to better figure out when we have disagreements that are silly, and decide that they just don't matter.

Thanks Ruthie, I needed to hear that today. I needed to hear that I'm not crazy (well, any more than usual, anyway). Thanks for the info about the diamonds too, I'd forgotten about that possibility.